Ugh. I haven't wanted to write in a while, because, honestly I have not been doing so hot with eating and working out.
I had my six month checkup with the doctor a few weeks ago, and it went really well. He took me off one of my blood pressure medications because I was getting light headed. So that's good! I see him again in six months, I would LOVE to have to call him before then and get off of some of my other meds. He is making me prick myself and take my blood sugar a few times a week, because he wants to know if it gets too low. So it's an icky thing for a good purpose, and hopefully won't have to do that too long.
So, after my checkup, I had a big reality check with the fact that I had not lost nearly as much weight as I had anticipated losing in six months. The doctor was happy because I was still losing, but I really wanted to have a bigger victory than that. So, after talking with my Aunt, and getting re-motivated, I decided to start working out with a personal trainer again. This time I just wanted to once a week to keep me on track, and have them give some workouts to do the other days on my own.
I decided I wanted to give personal training another go. I wanted a trainer who I could depend on and who would motivate me and help me achieve my goals. I talked with the owner of the gym I go to (Blue Springs Fitness) and he set me up with an AMAZING new trainer.
I worked out with new trainer this morning and I LOVE her. I felt like my workout was much more catered to me, she was really interested in all of my medical history, and seemed like she really knew her stuff. I don't know if it's a male/female change but I found some major differences between the person I used to work out with and am really happy.
I feel like her concern is getting me healthy and keeping me that way. She understands and wants me to make a lifestyle change and not a temporary diet. She also explained the importance of eating plenty of calories so that you are fueling your body.
Also I don't have a ton of time to spend at the gym. So she is like, you can get a lot done in a smaller amount of time, its just about maximizing it and doing things that get you the best results. I really feel like trainer awesome (her nickname) and I are going to have some great results.
So my energy is coming back and I'm gaining more momentum. Let me tell you though, after not really working out much for several weeks and eating junk food, I noticed a huge difference. My clothes were tighter, I gained weight, I didn't have as much energy, and when I worked out this morning, it totally kicked my butt. I had to stop a few times and say hold on, which I never had to do before. It's amazing how quickly you can get out of shape if you stop your regimen.
Another important thing that I think my male trainer had a harder time with, and this trainer understands, is the emotional side of everything I'm going through and losing weight. It's a very big undertaking and a very emotional journey to lose weight. Add in my heart attack and everything I've been through, it is hard. I'm ready and willing to fight for this, but I need people around me who are going to encourage and support not just the physical journey.
Food is an emotional thing for me, and lately with lots of stress in my life, (trying to find a place to move, death of one of my boyfriend's family members, etc) I turn to food. I don't feel like going to gym, and I feel like eating more. I know this is bad, and I completely beat myself up about it. But I don't think trainer ass understands that this is something that people go through sometimes and its so hard.
They were all excuses and I used them not to eat healthy and workout - but I have to get back on track. So why not start today?
