Struggles

I love food.

Food has been the hardest part of ALL of this for me. I haven't gotten used to the working out, in fact I (mostly) look forward to working out, I like the way I feel and it gives me time to read and think and be by myself. But I am having a hard time with food and self control. I'm good with cooking healthy, and I bring my lunch most every day to work. But we still eat out way too much for dinner. And my favorite thing to eat out is Mexican food. When they put those chips in front of me, I just can't resist myself!! I have trouble stopping and I have trouble saying no to these kinds of things. My trainer suggested I order a salad while everyone is munching on chips, but quite frankly, I don't wanna!

So, I am still working on my issues with food. I have come a long way, but I have a long way to go.

It has definitely slowed down my weight loss progress. The first pounds were easy to lose, but now, even with going to the gym and working with a trainer, I just seem to be yo-yoing in this same area. I want to beat it sooooo bad and I just have to remind myself of that every single time I go to eat!

I'm going to do it though!

On a positive note, I don't know if I have posted about all the changes I've seen just in what weight loss I have had, but it really is life changing. Granted, much of my feeling better is because my heart is pumping the way that it should and I am much healthier. But, my clothes are loose, I have more energy during the day, and I sleep great at night. I used to lie in bed forever trying to fall asleep and I would wake up all night long on and off. I for the most part, sleep through the night now and it feels great. I don't have nearly as hard a time waking up at 6 to go work out as I would have several months ago (don't get me wrong, I'm still not thrilled). But man, when 9:00 rolls around, I am ready for bed!

I used to ALWAYS feel bad, I didn't realize it until I felt so good. I had headaches, stomach aches (no doubt the way I was eating), I just always felt blah and tired. It's so crazy to me now, I can't believe I lived like that. I rarely have any of those things now and its just so nice.

Things with the trainer are going well. We are doing lots of different exercises and I feel like I will be really educated when we are done. We usually do arms one day, legs another, and lots of abs inbetween. So far the hardest things has been planks. I HATE THEM. They make me sore and they are incredibly hard. Especially side planks.

 She makes it look so easy.


Here's to pushing through the hard times and not eating through them!!!

Graduate

Well I graduated from cardiac rehab last Friday. Woo hoo! I really enjoyed the experience overall, and everybody was so nice and friendly, but I am definitely glad to be done. I am stick of putting those stickies on me so often for the heart monitor, and it does get a little depressing talking about medical stuff all the time.

So by the time I was done with rehab, I lost a total of 18 lbs. It feels great! Still trying not to buying new clothes, just wearing belts and wearing some jeans and pants I haven't been able to fit in for awhile, which is a great feeling.

I didn't work out with my trainer last week and didn't feel like I did all that great. For some reason, he thought being at the birth of his first born child was more important that working out with me :). hehe. He sent me a picture of the new baby and it is of course, adorable.

So we started back up today and I have a feeling my arms are going to be really sore tomorrow. It got really hard lifting the weights, but I did it without complaining. We do lots and lots of abs. Gotta get ready for Florida this summer!

Okay well must work now. Going to the royals game tomorrow, so that should be fun. Trainer told me to eat sunflower seeds. :( lol.

I work out!

Things are getting harder to keep up with. My initial momentum is lacking, and I have found it easy to slip back into old habits. Several times I have found myself thinking, "just this once, I'll be better later". Granted, you are always (well i am always) going to have a not great meal or make a bad choice at some point, it is just doing it in moderation. I am still eating way better, but several bad decisions in a row did make me feel guilty!

I have been working with a personal trainer for the past few weeks. Trying to work past my plateau. I really like it. We do arms one day and legs the other. I much prefer arm day! Last week, after our first leg day, I did not walk normal again until at least 4 days later. I have never been so sore in my entire life. Yes, its a good feeling, but I could barely move. Everyone at work was laughing as I would try to hobble around the store. The giant stairwell in my house was amusing as well. We did legs again today, and I'm already able to tell I will be sore tomorrow, but hopefully a little less :/.

The personal trainer gave me a diet to follow. He wants me to eat the EXACT same thing every single day for two weeks. That really isn't happening.... I'm following it pretty well, but am making some substitutions of things with similar calories etc...

I do enjoy learning what to do at the gym. He's teaching me how to do the machines and the kind of workouts I should be doing. It makes me more confident in the gym and I feel better about getting a total body workout.

He had me buy a protein shake mix. I always laughed at those giant tubs that muscle guys drink. So, I gave in and bought one in a chocolate flavor and the first day I just shook it up with milk. GROSS! I could barely get that thing down. It was nasty. I did some research and chatted with others who drink them and decided I needed to make it more of a smoothie. So for day two, I blended it with ice and peanut butter and it was really quite tasty. No milkshake, but definitely drinkable.

This weekend we have a house party to attend, and a graduation party on Sunday. Busy busy! My friend Whitney is coming in to visit from LA next week, so I am really looking forward to seeing her!

Okay well I am an old lady and it is past my bedtime. Goodnight all!