Hard Day

This week I am beating myself up a bit. One of my good friends found out that her 9 year old daughter has high cholesterol. She is a super healthy, thin, active little girl. So they are making changes in their food, etc... Here I am giving all this great advice, and recommending things. How much of those am I still following? Probably less than half.

It is just so hard for me! I've gained back some of the weight that I lost. I just have NO SELF CONTROL. The other day I went to Chipotle and the whole time I'm telling myself, no chips and guac, no chips and guac. I get up to the checkout and what comes out of my mouth "chips and guac please."

I set my alarm for 6:15 every morning to get up and go to the gym. How often do I get up and go? Only when I have to meet my trainer. Granted, I still go in the evenings. But every week it seems like I have an excuse to miss days.

I really wish I could work out with my trainer 3 days a week, but I just can't afford to do more than 1 day. I can barely afford that, but know that it is necessory for my health so I just make it a priority.

I just need to get my  motivation back. If Jason would wake me every day and say hey babe let's go the gym together. I would totally jump up and go. But most mornings he is up and gone way before I'm even out of bed. It's not his fault, I just wish I had someone to really push me.

Speaking of Jason. This week he told me he has lost 18 pounds. Doing what? Oh just thinking about it apparently! lol.

Okay I'm done being down on myself. Just gotta keep trying. I ordered a Fitbit this week. I will write how that goes.

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts....