Fame

Hello all!

I have been teasing my boyfriend about how famous I am since my news appearance. Just what I always hoped I would be famous for! :)

Overall, I am pleased with how the story went. I could sit and critique the way I look all day, but I have heard lots of encouraging words and that means a lot. I think seeing myself on the news made things hit a little harder. Sometimes I think I push back the gravity of what actually happened to me. I feel so much better and so it's easy to think it wasn't such a big deal. For those who watched it online, I felt like his sentence "Dr. Dunker said that Carly had 3 of the 5 biggest risks for heart attack. They are; diabetes, family history of heart problems, high cholesterol, high blood pressure and smoking." was kind of confusing. For the record, the 3 risk factors I had were family history, high blood pressure, and I am insulin resistant (diabetes). I do not smoke, my cholesterol was just on the border to being high. They said it was okay for a normal person but for someone with my other risk factors it needs to be lower.

Last week I went to rehab at a different time than normal and this woman was there while her husband was doing his program. She just kept staring at me. She asked me my situation and I spoke with her but even the rest of the time she just kept staring like she was going to burst into tears. At the end she apologized for staring, that she just couldn't believe I was facing all of this so young. It's things like that that make me a little bit sadder. I don't want to be seen as someone to take pity on. I just want to get healthy and get to live a long healthy life like a lot of other people. Each day is a different emotion.

On a happier note, I have lost 13 lbs! I absolutely love getting on the scale and seeing the numbers going down. My clothes are fitting looser too. I am waiting until I have lost more weight to shop, I already have lots of clothes for the way down. :)

I have had the past four days off. It's been nice, I wish I had money to go on an actual vacation, I didn't really do much. On Saturday, Sandi and I went to the park by my house and walked for about 40 minutes or so. She got tired way before me. Although it was an extra workout tugging on her leash and pulling her away from other dogs and kids.

I made some yummy barbecue chicken the other night from that same cookbook I talked about before. We grilled it and it was delicious, even Jason really liked it. Last night I made some spinach manicotti. I wasn't as big of a fan of that, Jason thought it was good minus the spinach. I think maybe it was a little spicy for me (the recipe used salsa). Food is getting easier to eat healthy though and I'm not craving the junk food like I was at first. It's been over a month since I have had a chicken finger, and for those who know me, they know that is a huge accomplishment in itself! :)

Off to bed, back to work tomorrow.